I need to finish this god damn Ph.D. So for that reason I have committed three days a week, which I’m going to spend in northampton. Not sure what I will always be doing but I’m going to be there and see what happens.
I think that good work has something to do with dogged determination. I can only think back to my gym work. I went without fail 3 times a week to the gym over a year . Thats 144 times. most importantly however I went in prepared to fail. Ie get in wrong, hurt myself, lack energy, lack motivation. But I still turned up and did my hours. Hence the dramatic change in my form factor.
I think that this has to be the same with the Ph.D. Work to succeed prepare to fail.
So today was my first day here are the pictures. Look through them before you read the below explanation
Here’s what I did.
I recorded myself doing pushups. I do pushups every day. In the above photos are the points of breaking where I couldn’t do any more. There is something about that point of breaking that I find intresting. Where my will breaks and I can physically no longer hold myself up. That little split between language and physicality. There’s something in there that involves Nietzsche, my weight loss, gender play, gender power. Not sure. It needs work
Any insight would be gratefully recived
